I have to keep updating because I promised someone that I would update this blog as much as possible. I hate breaking promises, so here I am.
I worked yesterday, and that was fun. I just forgot to smile.
Well, it’s hard to smile, and that might be due to schizophrenic tendencies taking over with the flat expression. That sucks, you know? I didn’t ring the orders up wrong for the first time, and it was a stress-free environment. That’s always something to be grateful for, especially when there’s a boss that I don’t care for.
I had another outburst yesterday. I was checking the schedule when the manager told me not to and to clean something else instead. I went through a period of pent-up anger, and then I got anxious. Afterwards, I got depressed and felt like crying. After an hour, I was fine.
I googled my symptoms — in the form of “unstable moods 1-2 times a week, anxious, anger, and depression” — and found out that it happens to have the same characteristics as Borderline Personality Disorder. Now, I don’t want to speculate on this, but that was the disorder that I learned so much about in abnormal psych. I’m going to be working with my psychiatrist on this a whole lot more.
Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have to cut this short. Someone I know is near me, and I don’t want them seeing this blog post.