This is taking me a lot of bravery to post this, but I don’t think that I can keep the secret much longer. It’s something that has affected me and I didn’t know it did until now. I was even hiding it from myself most of the time and I found out why I have had so much anxiety.
I’m not going to go by Kayla anymore. I’m not going to call myself female anymore. I found out that I’ve been having dysphoria, and it’s been making me anxious. So, what does this mean?
I am a transgender male.
It’s something that’s been part of my life since I was younger. The dysphoria really kicked in during puberty. Then it was blended in with my mental disorders, and now I’m finally figuring out who the hell I am. So, I’ve been a guy all of my life, and I haven’t put the pieces together until now.
I’m going to find a name tonight so that you can call me by my chosen name. I’m going to have to keep this from my family; otherwise, they’d disown me. I’m sure that this is okay with my boyfriend (he is the best boyfriend I’ve ever had).
I don’t know what else to say other than the fact that I hope some people accept me on here. If not, then I have nowhere really to turn. But that’s alright. I’d understand.