other than having an incredible migrane from Risperidone withdrawal, I have to say that I’m hallucinating again. I saw a shadow of Dani yesterday, which means I may hallucinate even more and see her face in the future.
I woke up, and I saw this array of patterns from the corners of my eyes. They were distracting and overwhelming… And suddenly, they stopped. A few minutes later, I heard the most annoying noise coming out of a heat vent. That was also a hallucination.
I’m scared. This has been about a week’s time of hallucinations. They might get more intense. I don’t want to go into public today, and it’s because I don’t want to hallucinate. Crowds bring on my hallucinations, and I sure as hell don’t need that happening.
I still haven’t told my boyfriend that I’m schizophrenic. It’s because I want to tell him when I’m face to face with him. And that scares me as well. He doesn’t know about the disorganized thinking and speech. He knows I’ve seen things in the past. I don’t know how to tell him. I really don’t.
Just… Someone help me.