I’m annoyed with my mind when it comes to religion. I want to be Pagan, but I also want to be Christian. I can’t tell you why.
I’ve tried to be religious lately, but something in me wants to defy Christianity. I want to be freed, and then when I get to Paganism, it doesn’t feel right. I’m getting annoyed and it’s not just an impulse. I guess I want the best of both religions, and that means one of 3 things:
- Remain Christian, but dabble into the occult; witchcraft is against what Christianity stands for, so I would be constantly sinning.
- Switch to Paganism, and keep some of my Christian walk with it. The beauty about this way is that I can craft my own path that’s unique to just me.
- Combine Paganism and Christianity; I’d use Mary for the Goddess and Jesus for the God aspect. Although this one is doable, there’d be a LOT of blurred lines. I don’t even come from a Catholic background, so Mary would be a new idea to me. I wouldn’t know how that goes.
This is confusing to me. I need to decide which one to try… The first one makes me feel like a hypocrite. Plus someone had done witchcraft while in the church at one point, and they got kicked out. I don’t do witchcraft…. Though herbology and that kind of stuff captures my attention more than spells.
I may be looking at the 2nd or 3rd idea a lot more and see what happens.