So, it’s been 2 weeks since I’ve started taking Abilify, and I must say that this medication is powerful for me. I am more outgoing — according to the Myers-Briggs Personalities, I went from an INFJ to an ENFJ. That means I’m naturally more outgoing than I previously was. (Oh, and before I forget, ENFJ personalities are, how you say, controlling.)
I switched back to Christianity and realized that Wicca was an impulsive thing to go after, and the religion should not be taken lightly. I am happy to say that I’m a Christian again, and I felt more compelled to talk to others in church, therefore making me feel like I belong in there.
I am pretty sure that Abilify is making my sleep more regular than before. I can’t sleep over 10 hours, so that’s handy. I can also sleep deeper and can sleep with dreams right now. Like, the last time I dreamed was… what, months ago…? Now I’m having a dream every night, and it’s so good. They’re mostly positive dreams as well.
I do not feel empty anymore. I feel fabulous and happy. I have had a couple of times where I was sad, and I think those mood swings had to do with some other biological things (hint, hint). I still feel emotions rather deeply, and it stinks. Maybe it could be fixed with a higher dose, but I’m not sure.
The Risperidal’s effect is fading off, and that means that some hallucinations are coming back: the commenting voice, the sound I hear when I’m in the shower… Those are the only things I seem to be hearing now. I think the Abilify is making up for what the Risperidal isn’t doing.
So, at this point in life, I have schizoaffective disorder, and my symptoms are under control for the most part. I think that this is alright for the meantime. My appointment is tomorrow, and I think that he may bump up the Abilify while decrease my Risperidal. Here comes the scariest part of transitioning meds. I have to prepare myself…